Living with Endometriosis

Waking up each morning I struggle to get out of bed… looking up towards heaven, I pray for the day ahead. Dear lord please help me, I’m in so much pain… not sure I can do this all over again. Trying to keep the hope alive is pretty hard to do. When all I want to do is cry, and get a hug from you. I can’t wait for the day they find a cure, it will happen one day, I’m pretty sure but until that day comes I will continue to fight, as long as I stay strong everything will be alright. What do you see when you look at me? I bet you couldn’t tell. I live with pain constantly, sometimes it’s a living hell! I bet you didn’t know that most of my days are filled with battles and wars. Not the kind that most endure but I can show you my scars. My pain controls my day, never asking me my opinion. My pain takes the lead and is in charge, one minute I’m fine the other I’m on the floor. Some may think I’m lazy and some see me as a flake. You have no idea how hard I try but my pain takes over and I have to hide. I may cancel on friends or not show but you don’t see the pain that never lets me go. I have been judged in more ways than one some think I would rather stay home and sleep all day or just lounge on the couch but you couldn’t be further from the truth. This pain gets so aggressive that most days all I can do is cry. So please stop judging as you have no idea what I go through. What you see, this pain I feel, it is no joke, it takes all I have just to stay afloat.

Eleven + years of pain and suffering, in and out of hospitals, Invasive surgeries, medications on top of medications. The complications and the possibility of no longer being able to carry my own child or get pregnant. I know i can’t give up but thete are days i just want to give up the fight, the fight for my life. But the fact that 176 million women worldwide suffer in silence is unacceptable! We will not remain silent anymore! We will fight and we will persist until endometriosis is taken seriously! My scars tell a story but also remind me that when life tried to break me it failed as I’m an endo warrior and I’ll fight till the end even though at times I wanna give up I know that I’m not alone so Im thanking my fellow Endo Warriors as your the reason why I have yet to give up 💛

My name is Ashley Courtney and I live and suffer from mental illness, chronic illness, pelvic pain & stage 4 severe endometriosis with severe tissue damage and nerve damage that is ruining my abdominal wall and my body. I am more than my illness! I am more than just Ashley Courtney who is sick and i vow to keep fighting even when I want to quit. I will stay strong for myself and for my fellow endo warriors ♥️ This photo was from end of November. 2nd hospital stay in one week & a day”

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